I recently turned 25 and it feels like I have unlocked a whole new level of this game called life. Everything seems so much clearer now and nothing is still clear, but I’m excited. I’m excited to keep painting this picture, writing my story and to keep becoming.
I have decided to start writing. I mean, why not? I have things to say and valid experiences to share. No one can tell my story better than I can, so I have decided to just do it.
I have considered writing before, but shied away from the idea because I’m not the most articulate person tbh. I struggle to put my thoughts together in a coherent manner most times and quite frankly, English dey hard me too (lol). I still don’t know how to use commas, but who cares? English is the white mans language and I ain’t a white man so… I’m just gonna do the best I can and that’s more than enough for me.
Also, this is supposed to be some form of expression or release for me. It’s not for anybody’s approval so I’m blocking out the noise. This is a no pressure zone, a safe space, for me, by me, and to me.
I don’t even know what this post is about, I might be rambling, but in the spirit of ‘just doing it’- here are a few things I have learned and I am continuing to learn:
- I am learning to fail forwards. I’ve realized that it is better to learn as I go as opposed to letting negative thoughts and anxiety cripple me to the extent where I do not do anything at all.
- I am learning the importance of starting. The importance of just doing it. That’s why I’m here, writing my thoughts down.
- I am learning to just do me. To exist in my body, in my mind and in this world. To do the things that make my heart smile and make me feel the most alive.
- I am learning that I can create the life I want. To deliberately pursue the things I want out of life rather than sit around and wait for life to happen to me.
- I am learning that I am the main character in my life. I am the star of this fucking show and that’s on period baby.
- I am learning to take up space because I am here and I damn well deserve to be here. Why blend in or fit in, when I can stand out?
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AG baby once said ‘such a shame I didn’t get it sooner, but better late than never’ and I need someone to point me to the offering basket because… word word word *snaps fingers*.
That line (read as ‘whole song’) resonates with me because I feel like I have been asleep for so long. Just floating through life, numb, with no purpose or direction. The good thing though is that I am awake now and my morning don show.
The world better get ready… cus it’s game time bitchesss
